When you are chosen by god does it feel like constant euphoria?

If i were to guess how many coincidences I've seen id say around 100 a day since 2005 I've had to empty my mind to retrieve my sanity. I am very happy but miss feeling shame and guilt and all the things that make me meek. I am so puffed up even the quaran makes sense to me although i love Christianity.. Or christs version of it anyway. Some coincidences i will never forget. The time i said with a group full of strangers. Why does a crocodiles sneezeings flash forth light.. At that very instant everyone around me ran off and left all of there stuff behind.. Because 4 giant spot lights came on shineing dirrectly on all of us. I did not flinch. The whole time i was full off this desire to feel and act sad but felt incredibly good inside. Now i can't mention all the things I've seen but i have seen miracles and every perfect gift is from god and the gifts i have received from god are so immense i am always at a constant loss as how to convey them to others. So i struggle to relate to the poor and hope my message is carried by god but it is nothing i have done that got me where i am it was all god i am just a ham on a stage. And by coincidence you are now the most important people of the world and that is why leviathans sneezeings flash forth light