Christians if i was mystically on tv 24/7 like the truman show would you tell me?

Seriously I've been paranoid about this for 6 years now. Unfortunately i don't trust anyone so no matter what you say i won't believe you. Problem with the world is if everyone stopped lieing for one day crazy people would take over the world believing everything they say. I totally don't even trust the doctors and im to intelligent to go to a crazy house although i hafto admit i would like people who can admit they are crazy more then people who think they are sane.. I've forgotten what sanity is but i was sane once now im called border line but that's just because im smart enough to stay sane. Problem with q like this there's so much to say. Im just glad im crazy enough i still enjoy life. And i look forward to death but i live for god and the stage i guess.